“I’ll see you later”
As I saw her cry and tears roll down her flawless cheeks, I realized how much she loves me. My heart kept on sinking till I couldn’t take it any longer. I can’t hurt her anymore, I can’t let her cry anymore. The sad part was that I can’t hug her, can’t kiss her… can’t do anything else but to look at her. I couldn’t do anything… that is, at this moment.
And as she drove away, I started walking. As I started walking, I started to feel the regret sinking in. And before all my world shut down, a tiny jolt of light passed through my eyes. I saw my future. A future so perfect, so real, that you’d think you’re living in it already. A future so lovely, that you wouldn’t want to stay away.
A future… with her.
That is when I realized what I needed to do. That is when I realized that I need to sort out everything. That is when I realized that what I did, letting her go for a moment, will be all worth it in the end.
Once I can pick up and make a name for myself, stabilize my life, and be independent.. fully independent.. THAT will be the time that I can say “Hey sweetie, I’m ready to be with you now”. that will be the time that I can say “Hi love, I’m sorry I kept you waiting. You don’t have to wait anymore… I’m all yours now.”
That will be the time to ask.. “M.A.M.M, with all my heart and life, I would be with you forever. If you could just answer these three simple words… Will you marry me?”
.. I’m still in love with her. I’m still fighting for her.
But for now.. both if us will just have to wait and see.
This isn’t goodbye. No, no. This is just one of our “I’ll see you later”s.
- This isn’t the right time for us to be together. But when that day comes, I swear to her, …to “YOU”, my one and only.. that it will be… Forever.
